waiting for spring
my all-time favorite song from bts is a song called "spring day."
it's not necessarily my favorite musically, but it's a meaningful song to me because it came out 2 weeks after i found out my dog died while i was away at school and it helped me grieve.
the song is about missing someone, a friend, and asking them to wait for you to go to them.
it was the perfect song for my situation and it's left its mark on me ever since.
many people also say it's also about the sewol ferry incident based on the music video, which makes the song even more emotional.
however, besides its impeccable timing, it holds a special place in my heart because of its theme overall.
"past the end of this cold winter, until the spring comes again..."
winter is hard for me.
i don't like cold weather and the short days cause me to feel even more depressed.
the seasonal depression piles itself onto my normal depression like those thick winter blankets and makes me feel so heavy and awful.
which is what i have been feeling lately.
i've been extremely stressed out about work, living in the future, and feeling hopeless.
work has been driving me insane - causing me to cry and cry until i can't anymore for the day.
i wonder if i should give up, but i'm trying to hold on just a bit longer.
both physically and mentally, i am experiencing winter.
and i am waiting for spring.
"how much longing has to fall like snow for the spring days to come, friend?"
i think longing can be replaced with many different words: sadness, fear, hardship, grief, etc.
you can replace it with whatever context you are in right now, but the metaphor stays the same.
whatever hardship you are going through right now, it may feel like a long winter, but spring always comes back around.
"because no darkness, no season, can last forever."
i'm having a really hard time right now.
possibly the most brutal winter i've experienced in a while.
but spring will come back around.
and i will wait for it.
"past the end of this cold winter, until the spring comes again
until the flowers bloom again, please stay there a little longer"